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It’s all out in the open now
Doesn’t sting as much as I thought it would
But it still stings nonetheless
It’s not me, it’s you
Was pretty much the answer
Am I supposed to wait?
Can I have time to lick my wounds
And heal from the rejection
So I can put the feelings aside
And focus on me,
On us, as friends, and nothing more?
All we want in this life is someone to share our deepest, darkest thoughts with. Someone who won’t judge. Someone who will love every ounce of your mind, body and soul. Someone who will put up with your bs, who’ll always have your back. When shit hits the fan, we want someone who will support us. To lift us up, to feel with us. Someone who understands you wholly, knows your next move or thought before you do. Someone who could never get too angry with you, or stay mad for too long because they just can’t find it in their heart to. Someone who will, even if for a moment, sacrifice their happiness to feel what it’s like in your footsteps, because they’re walking with you. Not in front leading, or behind being dragged along. You are side by side, sharing life and all it hands you.
Sure you may be able to find it in a friend, but a friend could still be considered an outsider. Not truly living in your world. You may tell them “everything” but to an extent. They may have your back, but when it gets really tough, will they be there?
We all want that one person who is everything. Beyond a friend, beyond a lover, beyond family. A soulmate, for lack of a better, more meaningful term.
I believe that not everyone has a soulmate. Many of us just long for something that is not in our destiny. And in that longing, we become even more damaged. Greatly in need of that one person who could possibly make it all better, and make everything right with the world. Not everyone is lucky enough to have that feeling of completion. That feeling that, yeah, this is it… this person is a part of my soul, the missing link, if you will.
That word… It doesn’t describe what I have at the moment. At this moment I feel weak, vulnerable, tired, fed up, alone, and just straight up depressed. I cried today, in the car, while driving, with the kids none the wiser. Because that’s what you have to do. Cry silently. Appear strong to everyone around you, especially the kids. They can’t see the struggle. I’m crying now, as they lay beside me, sleeping. Those are the only chances I get to release my frustration, my hurt. If it weren’t for them though, I don’t know where I’d be. So much would be different, I believe. But I only wish they were here under different circumstances, happier circumstances. Because I don’t want to watch them grow up in this mess of my life.
And I know the advice I’d get if I talked to someone about it: Make the best of a bad situation. Just focus on the good.
But sometimes, there are just some things you can’t make light of. It is what it is. And since I can’t fix it, I continuously get upset… At myself, at people around me, at life in general. I just want to scream, but I can’t. I want to run away, but I can’t. I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. No turning around. No moving forward. Just at a standstill. And it hurts. It hurts to be alone. Where no one can understand or sympathize or anything because they’re not you. And they’re on the outside, looking in. And they’ll only accuse you for things out of your control or that you didn’t do alone.
What is the reason for living? Right now, it’s only for my kids, otherwise, I just don’t know anymore….
If you’re like me, you have an arsenal of screenshot-ed (making up words now) quotes at your disposal for any and every situation. I don’t know what I did before smartphones but I’m obsessed with this feature. Anyway, my purpose for this post is just to display some of my (19 out of 224 to be exact, not including ones already posted on my Instagram) favorite quotes.
Started writing a new short story entitled “Tricky Seduction”. The first & second chapters are up on Wattpad now: http://www.wattpad.com/115560696. It’s about a woman who is obsessed with her coworker and will stop at nothing to be with him.
Really hope you guys like it. I’m trying to figure out which way I want to take it. I have a general outline in my head but writing it out is always hard. Anyway, head over to Wattpad to read it! Remember to vote, comment, share, and follow me!
Tricky Seduction by MsQuietStormJ
*Changed the cover since it went a lil better with the story*
There are so many different types of love. I love food. But not in the same way that I love my family. I also love some of my friends but not in a romantic way which would only be reserved for one person. Everyone and everything is loved differently.
So why is it hard for some people to even mumble the word in casual conversation? They will skip around it in every which way (the L word, or 1•4•3) as if the word is a curse (meanwhile they have no issue saying a typical curse word). Then they go on to wonder why there are so many negative things happening to them in their life. “Woe is me! Why do bad things always seem to happen to me?”
I’ll tell you why…. You have no type of positive outlook on anything really. You expect bad shit to happen, so it does. You act as if there is no love in your life or you don’t believe in it. But as I just said, there are so many types and levels of love in life. You don’t have to be scared of it. Embrace it. If someone tells you they love you, at the very least, say thank you, even if it’s not reciprocated. Because there are some people in this world who actually don’t have that privilege, to have any form of love.
Be grateful, look at life and love in a different light, and then maybe, just maybe, things will start looking up. Instead of dwelling on the negative, on all the bad, dark things that have happened to you or around you, just make even the slightest attempt to change your outlook. Could change your life around, but you never know if you don’t try.